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July 14, 2005, 6:30pm: Time to Get Serious
| GOAL: |
5 miles |
RESULTS: |
5 miles
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| LOCATION: |
Forest Park, St. Louis, Missouri
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| CONDITIONS: |
85°, hazy |
| SUMMARY: |
TIME: 59:49 |
PACE: 11:57/mile
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HEART: 123 or 66%
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| TOTAL TRAINING MILES TO DATE (walking & running): 379 miles |
Thoughts:
I had a tough time running today. In fact, I ran 3.5 miles and walked the rest. There could be a lot of factors as to why I couldn't run this easy 5-miler today...it could be as simple as thinking the weather was going to be cooler, and I wasn't prepared for the heat and didn't carry a water bottle. Or maybe it was from running on concrete yesterday, and my body was physically beat up from it...I was getting pains in places when I did run on concrete....or perhaps it's deeper than that. Maybe the fact I altered my training schedule and ran yesterday instead of Tuesday...was that a sign that I'm slacking on training? Plus, I did walk the last two Thursdays. But those walks were great times with Lindsey, and we needed that. But, am I not properly training? Am I not eating right? I'm thinking about this 18-miler on Saturday, and I'm getting nervous and excited at the same time. Will I be prepared? Have I been drinking enough water? Am I getting the right amount of carbs? Or am I taking in too many carbs? Maybe I'm eating the wrong carbs? All these questions are floating around in my head, and they're kinda driving me crazy. If I get injured on Saturday for any reason, is it because I'm not prepared? And that damn Oprah! Running a marathon in 4:29:20? That's a pace of 10:13/mile! I can't let Oprah beat me! Why do I care? I just do! The whole time I'm running, I'm always thinking about that Oprah pace. Before, I was concentrating on a 10:30/mile, but since someone mentioned Oprah last Saturday, mentally it's becoming the time to beat. I don't want to disappoint myself if I can't beat Oprah. Again, why do I care?! Just completing the marathon would be miraculous, especially when just 3 years ago I weighed 270 pounds and I was embarrased to even be social because I was a big tub of goo! And I'm running this for the Arthritis Foundation, and they don't care what time I finish the marathon...they just want me to finish and raise lots of money at the same time. The marathon is about a month away, and I just don't feel as prepared as I should be. I thought I'd weigh about 20 pounds less than I am right now. I'm trying to eat smart, but runners need carbs! And carbs are the devil! (at least according to low carb/Atkins dieters). AAAARGH!
| THOUGHTS: |
I think I really need to buckle down, eat smart, drink lots of water, not worry about losing weight, take it easy on the long runs, stick to the schedule and just...have...fun! I needed to vent today. Of course, it could be the remnants of Hurricane Dennis that's causing the winds and rain to come in from the northeast instead of the southwest That's just weird. |
WHAT I'LL
REMEMBER MOST: |
Quitting at 3.5 miles. I need to lift myself up to win this challenge! |
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