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May 23, 2005, 6:30pm: I just wasn't into it today.
| GOAL: |
3 miles |
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| LOCATION: |
Forest Park, St. Louis, Missouri
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| CONDITIONS: |
85° and sunny, some wind |
| RESULTS: |
3 miles |
TIME: 30:30
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PACE: 10:09/mile
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| TOTAL TRAINING MILES TO DATE (walking & running): 165 miles |
Dragging Myself to the Park:
So, here I am getting back into the routine after the 12-miler over the weekend. I just wasn't into it today. I forgot my sports watch. My running gear was still wet from being washed this morning. My legs and shin splints were burning from the start, but I think that was from the weekend run recovery. I dunno. People were thinner than me, running faster than me, yet here I am in the 8th week of training, and I feel like I haven't lost a lot of weight. I know my body is changing, because I'm fitting in clothes I haven't fit in for a couple years, but it's just hard to lose the weight. One day I lose 4 pounds, and the next I gain 4. I don't know why this is happening. Am I slowly loosening up on my diet, which keeps the weight on? I lost 1,600 calories running that 12-miler. You'd think something would show for that. Plus, all these runners in the park are skin and bones. Why won't I drop the pounds, at least consistently? I don't understand, and that's all I could think about during the run. Plus, I miss having my girlfriend close to home. I enjoy my time with her when we're together, but since she lives 100 miles away, there are days when it's harder than normal. I guess today was one of those days. But, I didn't quit or stop running. I got through it, and even walked 3 miles afterwards just to collect my thoughts and stretch out my throbbing legs and shin splints. By the time I was finished, I felt better physically and a little better mentally.
Team Member Compliment
One of our runners, Shelly, sometimes sends an e-mail to the team on the day after the big Saturday run, and this recent e-mail she sent to the group made me feel better. She said, "Patrick, great run. You seem to be a natural." I guess if it looks like I'm doing alright in the team's eyes, I must be doing alright.
No Half-Marathon For Me
I've decided not to travel to Maryville, Missouri for that half-marathon. The time frame just won't work out for me, and it would be costly, especially for a "practice run" in my case. I wouldn't get to Maryville until midnight (6-hour drive), and then I'd have to get up around 5:00am to grab a bite and be at the starting line at 6:30am. Then I'd have to drive back home the same day. Plus hotel costs and gas costs would put me somewhere in the $200+ range. I'd rather train with the group that day.
| THOUGHTS: |
I know it's just one of those weird thinking days, and I'll get over it. The weather was so nice, but I just couldn't self-motivate today. |
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